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Tuesday, 20 August 2013

Changes

You know what I find interesting? This may not be how it works with everyone but I can at least say it's true for myself and some of the people I have/had close relationships with. We do our most self reflections when we've been knocked down. We don't ever take the time to take a step back and look at ourselves when we're feeling good about ourselves, only when we're down. I was thinking today of all of the qualities I wish I could have but I don't and wondering if I could force myself to take on those qualities. For example, I'm a worrier and I'm often afraid to take risks. I need things to be absolutely clear and defined and laid out organized. I have a hard time making decisions even if it's just the smallest ones. These are a few of my personality characteristics, they make up who I am yet I often find that I don't want to be that person. I want to be brave and confident, and care less about things that I actually care way too much about. I want to stop obsessing over the little details and/or the things of the past. But I also realized I've had this thought so many times before too and I've tried to change parts of myself so that I can be completely satisfied with who I am. Then, I really started to think about it and I realized that I have changed quite a bit over the years. I've become stronger and taken a few more risks that I probably wouldn't have before, I've forced myself to step out of my shell more often and meet new people, but even though this is true I'm still often unhappy with the amount that all of these changes have increased. I thought that by now I wouldn't have a care in the world and that I'd be able to handle everything that comes my way. I thought I would be able to just brush off anything that made me feel less significant and unsure of myself because I'd be confident enough to know that who I am is just fine. These things seem to come so easily to others but for me it's like a struggle sometimes and I can't help but wonder if most people do feel this way but don't show it, or if it's something I'll grow out of, or if I'm just different. I'm not saying that I don't like who I am entirely, I do like certain aspects of myself but there are a lot of things that I could point out that I would like to improve and work on, and I'm quite impatient. A lot of the time I find myself wishing that I could just say "okay, starting today I'm going to be confident" and it would happen but reality is, is that it takes a lot of work and time to adapt to changes, and like I said, I'm impatient and honestly, a little bit scared. 

There are many things I wish I could change and I think my problem is, is that I have a major issue with feeling the need to be perfect. But here's the problem with my problem, there is no such thing as perfect. Everyone has a different idea of what "perfect" is but there is no exact description. So, my perspective on perfect is constantly changing because I'm hearing other people's opinions on what they think perfect is in all different aspects of life such as at work, as friends, in relationships, in every day life, and even as just a stranger. I want to be a good person who takes care of others and is sensitive to others feelings but at the same time I want to be able to be tough and strong and not have to worry about other people and how they affect my life, but the two just don't mix. Same goes for I want to be a confident person who isn't afraid to show the world exactly who they are but I also don't want to seem shallow or full of myself. There's no such thing as a happy medium apparently because no matter how hard I try I either end up caring too much or too little, coming off snobby because I'm too shy or obnoxious because I'm too "out there" or, end up hurting someone else because I'm too hard or hurting myself because I was too soft.  

After all of this over-analysing and thinking I've decided that there's nothing wrong with wanting to alter who you are to better yourself, because we do it all of the time regardless of whether we want to or not based on experiences in our lives. Our whole lives are spent figuring out who we are and I think that experiencing changes is definitely a part of that. Change is terrifying but it could be the best thing that ever happened to you and it's not something to obsess over. I don't need to change because someone else might want something different from me, I should want to change so that I can be happier and have a better life. So that's exactly what I will do. I can be whoever I want to be, and can do whatever I set my mind to. I can live life with no regrets, and stop obsessing over the past. The past is the past and you just have to take from that what you can learn and keep moving forward. 

Thursday, 14 March 2013

People Are Becoming So Insensitive...

I found yet another post on my Facebook newsfeed that I didn't quite agree with, this is what was posted: 

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"This was written by a 21 yr old female who gets it. It's her future she's worried about and this is how she feels about the social welfare system that she's being forced to live in! These solutions are just common sense in her opinion.

Put me in charge . . ..

Put me in charge of food grants. I'd get rid of cash for potato chips or chocolate. Instead there'd just be money for the staple foods like bread, milk, potatoes, fresh vegies, cheese and all the powdered milk you can haul away. If you want steak, pies and take-out pizza, then get a job.

Put me in charge of Healthcare. The first thing I'd do is to provide women with birth control implants or tubal ligations. Then, we'll test recipients for drugs, alcohol, and nicotine and document all existing tattoos and piercings. If you want to reproduce or use drugs, alcohol, smoke or get more tats and piercings, then get a job.

Put me in charge of government housing. Ever live in a military barracks?
You will maintain our property in a clean and good state of repair. Your "home" will be subject to inspections at anytime and possessions will be inventoried. If you want a plasma TV or Xbox 360, then get a job and your own accommodation.

Put me in charge of compulsory job search. In addition, you will either present a cheque stub from a job each week or you will report to a "government" job.

It may be cleaning the roadways of trash or painting and repairing public housing, whatever we find for you. We will sell your 22 inch rims and low profile tyres and your blasting stereo and speakers and put that money toward the "common good".

Now before you respond that I've violated someone's rights, realize that all of the above is voluntary. If you want our money, accept our rules. Before you say that this would be "demeaning" and ruin their "self esteem", consider that it wasn't that long ago that taking someone else's money for doing absolutely nothing was demeaning and lowered self esteem.
If we are expected to pay for other people's mistakes we should at least attempt to make them learn from their bad choices.

The current system rewards them for continuing to make bad choices.

AND while you are on Gov't subsistence, you no longer can VOTE! Yes that is correct. For you to vote would be a conflict of interest.....You will vote for a "welfare" Gov't. only. You will voluntarily remove yourself from voting while you are receiving a Gov't welfare cheque. If you want to vote, then get a job."

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I agree with some points, such as the first one about food grants. I am all for ensuring that we all eat healthier and especially if these people on welfare are getting money for food they should use it to make sure that they (and their families) are eating well and being healthy.

By the second paragraph it starts to get a little off topic. I agree that women should have birth control provided (although the kind of birth control should be optional and have more than just a couple choices), and I also agree that testing for drugs and excessive alcohol consumption should be tested for but documenting all tattoo's and piercings seems a little over the top. Why would they need documentation of these things? If the government were worried that they're spending the money they're getting on body modification they shouldn't be. Tattoo's and piercings don't come cheap, and I'm sure that if it came down to buying food and paying bills vs. getting a new tattoo/piercing the person would choose their needs over their wants. If the documentation is a health-related issue, I still see no reason to fuss over it, it's their own body and they have the freedom to express themselves in whichever way that they want. Basically saying "no, we will not give you birth control (or money) because you have many tattoos/piercings is stereotyping, it is unfair and it is wrong. 

In the third paragraph it starts to get even more ridiculous, I agree that if you're having your cost of living covered without working you should have to regularly do maintenance on the house and keep it clean and in good shape, but to actually go into someone's home and inspect it is a violation of people's privacy. I keep my house clean majority of the time and have nothing to hide but I would still be uncomfortable with someone coming into my home and judging me. It would just put stress on me and make me feel like I'm uncomfortable in my own home. Also, taking an inventory of all of someone's possessions isn't right either, that's not your business what someone has, what if they were to receive a gift or win a new TV? 

By the fourth paragraph it gets a little bit better and then a little bit worse, I definitely agree that if someone is able to work but just out of a job that they should be looking for work and having someone to push them to find work, and I even agree that if they don't have a job they can work "government" jobs such as cleaning up trash on highways, painting or repairing public housing. Those are all things that would need to be done anyway and it would not only give these people purpose to get up every day and accomplish something but it would also benefit the community as well. Directly after this wonderful idea though, it says that they will sell your expensive possessions because you don't have a job therefore you don't need it. If someone wanted the extra money they would sell those things themselves and the government has no right to take those things away anyway. What if it was something you got for yourself before you went on Welfare, when you had a job? What if it was also a gift, or won? Just because someone is poor does not mean that they deserve to have everything nice they ever earned taken away from them so that they have nothing, that's depressing. 

In the last bit of the post, the conclusion, it says that all of this shouldn't be considered violating someone's rights because it's all voluntary, and the reason why these people are on welfare is because they made "bad choices" but that's not true at all. A lot of the time, bad things happen to good people, people lose their jobs every day because there are less jobs and more cut backs. Let me share something with you, growing up, my mom and I were on welfare. It's not because she was lazy, or because she wanted to just live off of the government, it's because she couldn't. I often heard her talk about how she missed working. I am not 100% sure why she originally had to go on welfare but I know her poor health played a big part in it and it takes a long time to apply for disability and get accepted and etc. I can bet you that the author that wrote this opinion has never had to be on welfare or have serious issues making ends meet. I know this because of the desire to take the "nice" things that these poor people have and sell them or get rid of them or keep track of them. Here's a truth for you instead; most people on welfare do NOT have nice things. I remember when I was growing up I never had anything that was "cool" or "in", I took what was given to me and I was grateful for it. Not having anything made me learn to appreciate the small things in life, but that doesn't mean that we should take away everything nice that these people own. Some people need to have something nice to make them happy, if you take that away you're taking away hope. I understand the concept of "if you want something nice then work for it", I've worked for everything I have now, like my laptop, my cell phone, my first camera, my first iPod and other major purchases. I wanted them so I got a job and worked for them and it felt so much better than having them given to me because that object was proof of my success and achievements, and this person wants to take away those items that represent past accomplishments? No, let them keep them as a reminder that they worked hard for something once, and they can do it again, it's aspirational. 

Lastly, the final paragraph saying that all rights to vote are thrown out the window when you go on welfare is BEYOND wrong. Many people in history have had to fight for the right to vote and you're wanting to take that right away in exchange for some money? You want to know what that sounds like to me? It sounds like that if the government were to take all of these ideas and put them into action, they'd be scared that people would quickly realize it's not a fair trade and want things to change, but the only people who would realize this is the people who are being treated unfairly because they are on welfare. Those people would not be able to vote therefore not being able to try to make a change for the better and are under the government's complete control and become prisoners to them. (Just for the record, I have a job and support myself but I would still vote against getting rid of rights for people who are on welfare). I can clearly see that the opinion above was written by someone ignorant who has never had struggle in their life, and has never had things thrown at them that were out of their control. It seriously bothers me that people are becoming so selfish and stereotypical that they can become so insensitive to others and want them to suffer even more than they already are. Basically what this opinion says is that if someone has already lost their job, their money, their pride along with other things they should also have their rights, their possessions and any chance of happiness taken away from them as well so they're left with nothing. Come on now people, THINK ABOUT IT. 

Sunday, 14 October 2012

I Clean Toilets For a Living

For all of you that don't know I am a housekeeper. I like some parts of it, I hate some parts of it but overall for the most part I enjoy my job because of the awesome people I work with and the friendly, comfortable environment I work in. But there are a few downsides to my job, such as the actual cleaning part. Sometimes you get awesome people staying in the rooms who are generally neat and tidy and some even partially clean the room before they leave. Then there are people who stay in a room and absolutely destroy the place, it's like they walked into the hotel and decided "I am going to make this housekeeper's life a living hell. You're welcome housekeeper." Here's a few examples of what I've dealt with going from gross to just pure annoying. 

Someone puked on the bed that the guest didn't even attempt to clean up, just left it sitting in a great big pile for me to clean. I didn't have to clean that room thankfully, but I was on laundry that day which meant I had to clean the blanket is was ALL over. The housekeeper who had brought me the blanket set it aside so that I didn't accidentally grab it and get puke all over myself but then another housekeeper came in, unknowingly picked it up and put it with the rest of the blankets, smearing puke all over the wall in the process. You know how you can kinda tell what the person was doing before they threw up if you're face to face with their puke? Well, I do. They were not sick because of the flu or another kind of illness. It was the kind of vomit that said "I went across the street to the bar last night, drank way too much and then made the bad decision of going next door and getting McDonalds." I'll tell you I'm definitely not eating McDonald's for awhile, that's for sure! 

Another time I had to clean a room that a family was staying in. I expected it to be dirty as kids are pretty hard to keep up with but it wasn't just the kids that were disgusting. I guess when the parents changed the kids diapers they figured that there was no need to neatly roll them up before putting them into the garbage can and that leaving them wide open with crap everywhere was totally acceptable. Well, not only that but they also decided that they would much rather not have the garbage bag in the garbage can where it belongs but it would be much better laying amongst all of the fast food wrappers and other garbage on the table. So, guess where those open dirty diapers went. Yepp, right into the garbage can with no bag in it. Shit EVERYWHERE on the inside of it. Guess who had to clean it. Yepp, me. 

I'll leave just those two gross ones as your stomache is probably churning and you're saying "No! No more!" So we'll move onto the annoying things. Luckily, there are more annoying things than gross things but when I find gross things they're just really gross. I've also heard many other horror stories from people who have worked there longer, so glad I haven't experienced that.. yet. 

A group of high school volleyball players recently came to town and decided my workplace would be the best place to book a whole bunch of rooms. When I heard that this was happening I was already not enthused as I absolutely HATE teenagers, (the stereotypical ones anyways) and I realized that I was really in for it when I was waiting for my boyfriend to come pick me up and a small group of volleyball players came in with their chaperones so they could book their rooms separately from the rest of the team. I had just gotten off work and had a killer headache (we had to rearrange a lot of guests in the hotel to make proper room for the teams so it was a long day) and they walk in there like they own the place and start yelling excitedly about all sorts of things. Mostly just Jersey Shore references which tells you something about their IQ level. Mostly all I heard while they were checking in was a lot of "YEAAAAH BUDDY" and "AWWW YEAAAH! YEAH!" I was so close to smacking them in the face and telling them to sit down and shut up but I kept my cool. \

I get to work the next morning after that and want to hit them even more when I found out that they got their hands on some silly string from the dollar store. I would also like to stop here and say something, Our location is probably the worst location EVER. Right across from us we have a bar, and a mini mall with a dollar store inside it. On our left we have McDonalds, and on our right we have an intersection. So, it's always impossible to get in/out of work because of constant traffic, the guests decide to go and get drunk at the bar and get McDonalds which leaves me with puke and lots of ketchup covered garbage to clean up, and the guests go buy stupid annoying little things from the dollar store just to piss me off. Anyways, I got to work and there was silly string in all of their rooms (thank god I didn't have those ones, I got the coaches rooms) and down the hallway. It wasn't a huge deal to clean up or anything since it was already hardened I and just picked up what I could and vacuumed the rest but it was extra work for us housekeepers to do. It just showed/proved that teenagers are inconsiderate and don't give two shits about anyone but themselves. And yes, I am 19, but I am not one of them. 

Also, the other day I went into a room to clean it and found that the bathroom was absolutely covered in white. It looked like some coke-head through a party in the bathroom. Luckily, it was not illegal drugs and only baby powder but it was still a bitch to clean up. It wasn't gross, and actually smelled nice and clean, it's just that as we all know, or should know, when you wet a powdery substance it turns to paste. So, whenever I sprayed the tub/sink/counter/toilet/floor with the cleaner it would turn into a paste-like substance. I had to wash everything at least 3 times and use the hose from the vacuum afterwards. It normally takes me 5 to 10 minutes max to clean a bathroom, this one took me 20, so it was just a waste of my time. The result of that day was me making this meme. 


When you clean toilets for a living, you have to have a good sense of humour. Instead of getting angry that I have all these messes to clean up I find things to laugh at instead, which isn't hard when you're a housekeeper. Some of the things you find in rooms makes you laugh pretty hard (such as walking in to a room with a broken bed), as well as some of the stories you hear from your co-workers (such as hearing a story of how that one girl who picked on you all through out high school had sex with a whole hockey team and got arrested for being drunk and partially naked in the stairwell after she had been kicked out of the room). Yepp, being a housekeeper is not an easy job but some things just make it totally worthwhile. 

But just a little reminder before I end this post, next time you stay in a hotel or motel or whatever, do not leave the room a mess. Put all of your garbage in the garbage cans (WITH bags in them!), throw out the soap/shampoo or whatever you used in the shower so we don't have to touch your buttcrack soap, if you make a gross mess at least attempt to clean it up to the best of your ability, and if you want to go the extra mile strip the bed! It makes our job a lot easier. And if you don't do these things and you stay where I work. I will hunt you down and smack you. Just kidding, I wouldn't do that. But seriously though.